Sorry for my absence lately. I’ve just had some stuff to sort through, mentally and physically.
I recently found out that one of my closest friends has been saying absolutely horrible things about me behind my back. And not just things that are subject to opinion, like I’m mean or stupid or rude. He made things up, told people I did things that never happened, painted a picture of me as a completely different person. Normally I wouldn’t just believe something like this without some sort of proof, but it made a lot of stuff make sense. In the last few months friends and acquaintances have asked me odd questions that completely baffled me, and I was never able to find out where the questions were coming from. Now it’s obvious. This is a person who I’ve never had a fight with, who I spent hours with listening to his problems after he ended a relationship, who I’ve always had a great friendship with, almost like brother and sister. Finding this out completely broke my heart. I’m sad, I’m hurt, I’m really, really pissed off. But mostly I’m just ready to start over and let it all go.
I’ve been in such a rut recently and this just added to it. Instead of dwelling on it, and letting this be another reason for me to not take care of myself, I’m moving on.
As of tomorrow, I’m starting over. See you on the other side.